i’ve always been the most indecisive person. i would always make people choose where they wanted to eat (yes, even if i was on a date) , what movie i wanted to watch and even what time i would be fetched. the reason behind this is because i am a big people pleaser. i would always put the happiness of others before mine which was a good thing because it thought me how to be self-less but in a way being a people pleaser made me a sort of push over or a passive person. this week i’ve gone through one of the toughest experiences i’ve had in my life not only did i have to study for finals week but i also had to deal with some stress brought on by my personal life. for days i’ve been stressed out on studying and as well as trying to deal with my emotions. it was the hardest thing to focus on my studies because my mind was preoccupied with the problem. of course i tried looking for an outlet for all the stress i felt so i turned to my friends who thank God, where there for me even if they themselves had finals to deal with. after sharing what happened with me to them i felt a tad bit lighter although i was still a bit on the confused side about my decision (indecisiveness is starting to show) . i would always say i’d do this i’d do that but i realized i wasn’t really thinking about it on my own i was more of influenced by what my friends were telling me which is why i couldnt decide on what to do to pick this or that. which is why i finally took some time to decide on what i wanted to do. after some time i realized that all i needed was to reassure myself that i was making this decision FOR ME and not to please my friends or those who i’ve talked to about the whole thing. i honestly am grateful for all the support my friends have given me it felt good to know i had this support system behind me but this decision was up to me. i would be the only one to know what to do and whats best for me. the constant battle between my head and my heart is finally over. i have chosen to follow my guts and just trust that that everything will work out eventually.
sweet serendipity 